Ok so today is much better.  I am off to a decent start.  I need to keep in mind that I did not get to this weight overnight, and it  will take a bit of time to get back to where I was.  My body has been so use to eating normal and being at a normal weight for so long.  It will obviously take time and patience to get back to my idea of normal!  Thanks for the comments ladies!  I do try to comment back and post as much as possible!  It is hard though, with a baby to take care of and a husband to hide it from!  I will post some thinspo and try to edit later this afternoon!  If I don't get a chance stay strong and safe!

Well today started out much better.  I ended yesterday with 1209 calories.  SHOOT ME NOW.  That is a massive amount of shit that I put into my body.  I can't believe that I went from eating like 50 calories in a week to this.  Uggghhh.  Well here is the damage so far today

Breakfast= 200 cals.

I'll update more later.  Wish me luck ladies!

I'm setting a new goal for myslef.  By this time next month I will be 10 pounds lighter.  122lbs.

Todays intake has been terrible.  I have totaly piged out.  I am sucha fat ass. 

2 Pop Tarts=400c

1 cup noodles=290c

I am sucha discrase.  I need some serious thinsporation.

OK LADIES, I AM BACK FROM MY LITTLE VACATION.  I HAVE NOT WEIGHED MYSELF YET, BUT I DEFINATLEY THINK THAT I HAVE LOST AT LEAST A COUPLE OF POUNDS.  I AM SETTING A GOAL FOR MYSELF.  WITHIN THE NEXT 14 DAYS I WANT TO LOSE AT LEAST 5 POUNDS.  I WANT TO START SMALL AND SET GOAL AFTER GOAL UNTIL I AM BACK TO THE OLD 94 POUND ME!

CALL ME NUTTY BUT I THINK THAT MY MOTHER IN LAW IS ANA.  SHE IS NOT SUPER SKINNY, BUT SOME OF HER EATING HABBITS ARE TOTALY THE SAME AS MINE.  LIKE FROZEN GRAPES, LITTLE ITTY BITTY PLATES AND BOWLS.....ALL KINDS OF STUFF.  IT'S REALLY WEIRD.

OK WELL THE HUBBY RAN OUT TO GET DIAPERS AND SHOULD BE HOME SOON SO I HAVE TO GET OFF OF  HERE.  I WILL UPDATE MORE TOMORROW!

 I am still stuck  at 130.  I hate it.  I have never been in a spot where I couldn't lose weight.  I have however, been trying to be a little healthier about the way I shed the pounds.  I don't think it is working though.  I may have to revert to my old ways.  I just don't want to be as bad off as I was.  I don't want it to get out of hand again.  I have a beautiful little boy to think about now.  Someone that I have to live for and be here for.  Well on to other things.  I am leaving tomorrow to go on vacation for a week.  I am hopeing with a little distraction I may get over this hump that I am stuck on.  I hope that you all are doing well.  I am off to comment and post some thinspo.

THIS IS WHAT I FEEL LIKE!!!!!